25 metų Sacha Reeve iš Melburno su mitybos sutrikimais susidūrė sulaukusi 16 metų – nepatenkinta tuo, kaip atrodo, mergina nusprendė imtis priemonių ir pavalgiusi tiesiog išvemdavo visą maistą. Palaipsniui pradėjusi mažinti porcijas, galiausiai normalaus maisto apskritai atsisakė ir leisdavo sau valgyti tik brokolius ar salotas – tiek, kiek neviršytų užsibrėžtos 150 kilokalorijų normos per dieną.
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I saw the photo of myself on the left the other day and tears just flowed...I feel SO strongly about EMPOWERING & INSPIRING women to be comfortable in their own skin and embracing diversity, differences, DNA, dimples, tiger marks but most of LIFE & LIVING, so I wanted to share . I was a shell of a human . I thought I could control how I felt by barely existing and numbing myself out from the world that surrounded me . I placed far to much value in WHAT I was not WHO I was because, well blatantly, I had the belief I wasn’t enough . It didn’t get me anywhere other than a very close encounter with death . I never saw any value in myself other than my body . I was never truly happy, I barely laughed, I struggled lifting myself out of bed each day, I missed out on years of LIVING, I lied to loved ones, I lost friends, I fought with my mind every goddamn moment to merely survive the day, I almost gave up multiple times . I lost myself in a piece of mind I never got, from a body that was never good enough . I fought hard, I still fight, each and every single day . It’s an uphill battle, but it’s a battle worth fighting till I die . I’ve found passion in life again, I have the ability to LIVE not exist, I can genuinely laugh and feel happiness, I have hope and plans for the future, I’ve found love but most of all I’ve found worth in myself & even though I may not feel it 24/7 I know I am enough, as a matter of fact, MORE than enough . No I don’t wake up and love myself every morning BUT I have found love in what life presents me with each and every day . It’s a blessing to be alive, let alone having the ability and capability to move, love, nourish, create memories, to wake up every morning and simply smile . If you are reading this there is a reason for that, I believe in divine timing and maybe that’s what this is but if I can say anything, it is this; Know you are ENOUGH, embrace YOURSELF, don’t punish yourself for what you believe you lack, you are BLESSED to be alive, don’t miss out on moments for madness in your mind, there is nothing more BEAUTIFUL than CONFIDENCE & remember beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Give yourself the best chance at living✨
Po 9 metus trukusio badavimo Sacha svėrė vos 35.8 kg. Negalėdama įkalbėti dukros pradėti maitintis ir rūpintis savimi, Sachos mama priėmė nelengva sprendimą ir prieš dukros valią išvežė ją į reabilitacijos kliniką. Tuo metu merginos būklė buvo tokia sunki, kad ji nebegalėjo kalbėti, skaityti ar rašyti. Nepažindavo net ją supančių žmonių veidų. Po kelis mėnesius trukusio gydymo reabilitacijos centre, Sacha priaugo svorio, iš naujo mokėsi sveikos mitybos pagrindų, intensyviai dirbo su centro psichologais.
„Tai prasidėjo vidurinėje mokykloje. Pradėjau nuo to, kad išvemdavau suvalgytą maistą. Jaučiausi stora, bjauri, nieko verta, pakliuvusi į spąstus. Tai kur kas daugiau nei telpa į žodį „stora“ – tai liūdesys, pyktis ir nuoskaudos. Tas jausmas, kuomet nesijauti pakankamai gera, labai sunkiai įveikiamas ir aš kovoju su juo iki šių dienų“ – pasakojo Sacha.
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One year ago I made the gut wrenching decision to end my European holiday with my bestfriend, and come home to fight for my life. To recover from something that had taken away any value life had to offer me. I wanted to LIVE, not merely "exist". . . Every morning I woke up, I chose life, I chose to live, I chose Sacha over ED. With every ounce of energy I had, I fought, day in, day out. Every minute of the day I pushed aside all the ludicrous unrealistic thoughts I had, to find reality. . . It wasn't glamorous, it wasn't fun, it wasn't easy, it wasn't linear. It was a painful, ugly, uncomfortable, head f**cking and grueling process, BUT it was worth every godamn second of it. . . It may not be over but as the days go on I get stronger. I'm still learning, growing, fighting and finding myself but I don't think that will ever change. . . There is a sparkle in my eyes again, a giant smile on my face, a constant & contagious laugh in my voice, a skip in my step and happiness in my soul. I found my worth in WHO I am, not WHAT I am. . . I chose to live out of LOVE over fear. I chose LIFE over anorexia and I'm so happy I did, because there is so much more to it than what meets the eye😉 No one is getting out of here alive, so we may as well do as much living as we can, whilst we can! . . If I can inspire just 1 person by sharing my story, that's 1 less person suffering and 1 more person LIVING. Go on girl, you can do it. One Day or Day One? You've got the power to choose. It's time for you to start believing in YOU. #RecoveryIsPossible #EdWarrior #YouAreEnough
Ilgą laiką jos gyvenimą valdžiusią anoreksiją mergina apibūdina kaip gyvenimo padalinimą į dvi dalis: „Tarsi tavyje būtų du asmenys – liga yra vienas asmuo, o tu esi kitas. Anoreksija tampa vis galingesnė ir galiausiai tave užvaldo“.
Dabar Sacha vėl mokosi gyventi ir džiaugtis paprastais, mums tokiais įprastais dalykais, kuriuos iš jos buvo atėmusi liga: „Ryte atsikėlus nebejaučiu sau neapykantos, nebesureikšminu to, kaip atrodau. Galiu studijuoti, galiu dirbti, galiu eiti vakarieniauti su draugais ir keliauti“.
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one year out of rehab & living dis-ease free. i remember my first day out I made a promise to myself that this was it, I was so sick and tired of being sick, I knew I held the power of how this would turn out & took responsibility of the course I took for the outcome I wanted. being tied down in any kind of dis-ease clouds your view of life & what it can be like, but being in recovery as each day goes on it’s like the haze starts to clear and you can see everything the world really does hold. it really is such a special place & we are so lucky to be able to live every day the way we do. gratitude is something I practice regularly throughout the day because to hold so much gratitude for even the tiniest & simplest of things leaves no space for negativity, self indulgence and pity for oneself. everyone has had their battles in life, but in the scheme of things, simply being able to wake up with a blanket over your body, drink a coffee, make yourself breaky and go about your day, you are more privileged than 80% of the rest of the world. dis-eas isn’t always something we can control, but what we can control is how we react to the situation & the changes we decide to make in our life. three things i’m very grateful for today ; my recovery, the people that have backed & stood by me, the life I have discovered exists & the passion I now have to live in it. recovery isn’t easy, it’s hard and is a continuous battle but it’s a much more enjoyable battle to fight to live rather than to disappear. back yourself the whole way, you are much stronger than you know ✨
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New YouTube Video up (link in bio) . . What once used to burden my life has now become something that empowers me. Obsessive/addictive exercising 4hrs a day + multiple hours spent in saunas or burning hot baths to burn off every last calorie or bit of “fat” I had left in/on me, used to take up every hour/day/month of my life for years. Hours and hours spent at supermarkets, health food stores, on websites reading cafe menus, on calorie calculators counting every last calorie I ate or drank including water to figure out how much I had to thrash myself at the gym the next day. My mind become a bank, what I ate became a loan that I then had to pay back through exercise (burning off what I ate plus more) until I got so tired of it that I stopped eating all together to save myself the headache. Food & Exercise addiction became my life, nothing else mattered, as long as I weighed less and took up less space, I was a more worthy human. Today I thrive off food, it’s been my medicine and what has & continues to keep me alive, I remind myself every day I am actually blessed to have access to clean fresh food. Food is fuel, it is not the enemy, I would not be alive without it. I now surf, go for walks along the beach with friends, shoot some hoops or go for a skate, I know I have to be pretty careful with exercise as it’s so easy for me to fall back into using it as a tool to burn calories which is a terrible mentality for anyone to have towards it and is a slippery slope for me. When I feel down about my body I remind myself, I have legs that take me on adventures, I have arms that help me surf, I have a tummy built to carry another human inside of it. I strip it back to basics and take away the superficial part of the human race! We are worth so much bloody more than our looks, what diet we’re on or how much we exercise. Never loose yourself in these extras we are actually blessed to have in our life!